sometimes the universe conspires to leave us with these moments when we are left alone, suddenly by ourselves.
Alone.
and my mind is left free to wander by itself. but it doesn't know where to go and what to do.
sudden and unexpected freedoms are just as stressful as instant hurts and afflictions and the revelations that we would rather live without.bumps and hairpin turns, potholes and ruts in the road, come without warning or occur outside the inner schedules we have set for ourselves.
why am i talking in the plural sense when all it comes down to is me talking to myself about myself?
talk about egotistical and self-centered!
however, looking at those terms in a different light and from another angle, they are not negative in the sense that they are actually good for the soul: to remember who one is and what one's spirit desires to be, and how far apart those two are from each other. How far the distance yet to be covered, these are the things for everyday.
and yet i must remember. because more often than not, i forget. how, one asks, can one forget one's self?
easily. when one thinks about another more than one's self. or others, more often than one thinks who one is and who one wants to be. thus one is lost in the selves of others, and must needs be saved.
and who to save oneself but one's own self?
Knights in shining armor to rescue damsels in distress are in extremely short supply, so one must learn to rely on the only character in the scene: and that is one's self.
Ever afters are written not by omniscient narrators, but by the role players in the set who have forgotten their line and cues and must wing it as best as they can.
There are no script and story writers backstage who have predetermined the flow of the story (or are there?) so the actors must make it up as they go along. How long can they keep it up?
Alone.
and my mind is left free to wander by itself. but it doesn't know where to go and what to do.
sudden and unexpected freedoms are just as stressful as instant hurts and afflictions and the revelations that we would rather live without.bumps and hairpin turns, potholes and ruts in the road, come without warning or occur outside the inner schedules we have set for ourselves.
why am i talking in the plural sense when all it comes down to is me talking to myself about myself?
talk about egotistical and self-centered!
however, looking at those terms in a different light and from another angle, they are not negative in the sense that they are actually good for the soul: to remember who one is and what one's spirit desires to be, and how far apart those two are from each other. How far the distance yet to be covered, these are the things for everyday.
and yet i must remember. because more often than not, i forget. how, one asks, can one forget one's self?
easily. when one thinks about another more than one's self. or others, more often than one thinks who one is and who one wants to be. thus one is lost in the selves of others, and must needs be saved.
and who to save oneself but one's own self?
Knights in shining armor to rescue damsels in distress are in extremely short supply, so one must learn to rely on the only character in the scene: and that is one's self.
Ever afters are written not by omniscient narrators, but by the role players in the set who have forgotten their line and cues and must wing it as best as they can.
There are no script and story writers backstage who have predetermined the flow of the story (or are there?) so the actors must make it up as they go along. How long can they keep it up?
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